An Angel in my Earth

I was first hesitated to enroll in this university because it was most likely dominated by girls. I really had a bad issue when it comes to sexuality then, but now I realized that there is no problem about that. I realized that they're just born that way. This blog post is not about gender discrimination. I just don't know how to come up in a better introduction.

Less men in school, less chance of having a boyfriend. Honestly, I never had one and I think I will never will have one. I am not thinking about it, but if given the chance I loved to TRY it. 

Once, I was really head over heels with my professor, after a few months, he left because he wanted to study (again) and he will stay there (somewhere out there) for good (I bet not!). I was here falling apart. He became my inspiration in everything. 

KC(my friend) and I were waiting under the tree haha. We're waiting for our van because we'll go to Manila Science High School for our catechesis. A flock of angels walk at the quadrangle and ONE of them CAUGHT MY ATTENTION. He is the only one I saw in that flock. It seems that everything blurred but him. My eyes followed him. He smiled, that beautiful smile. It made my day. He is tall and good-looking. I don't know his name, I just remember that he is wearing an expensive watch. I asked my friend his name based on the description I gave. 

When I finally found out his name I never stopped thinking about him. I never see him for a very long time until summer. I thought he was also taking his Summer classes. I thought that he is a senior but he was a fresh graduate taking his board exam review (that's why he is in school that warm summer days). I never thought of him in the first few weeks of academic year 2011-2012. He is just a crush. I knew that he likes/loves someone else. I haven't seen him because he's done with his exam last July 2 and 3. He never visited the school again. I added him in facebook because he confirmed my friend. To my surprise he accept the friend request quickly. 

Last Thursday I was with my friends in Robinson. We ate (as usual). While walking (back to our school), a good friend of mine said "Si ano o! si ano! (it's ...o! it's...him)." To my surprise I saw him again. He looked so different than before. He has a beard already but he is still the person I knew. He is more stunning, more firm and more mature looking. 

After that, I had a dream about him. He's just in my dream. 

Oh Lord, I never asked for someone as a replacement for my professor. HAHA. I am now happy. I hope this happiness will last for a long time. I never felt this happiness for a very long time. 

I called him my angel because he really looks like an angel. He was named after an arch angel. He makes me happy effortlessly. Take note, HE DON'T KNOW ME! Seeing him from a far makes me happy. I don't know why. 

P.S. I am not obsessed. 

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Monopoly in Telecommunications

I just got home from the forum held at my beloved school St. Paul University Manila. The talk was all about Monopoly in Telecommunications. I think that the talk was worth it. Honestly, I don't know if I understand the talk very well because my mind is busy thinking of another thing, which is out of this world. 


The next paragraphs were my insights about the talk that I've attended a while ago. The following paragraphs were the things I've understand in the forum. 

• The merge of PLDT and Digitel and the effect of it to us, consumers.
• The teleco woes like: slow internet connection, 3.00 pesos per minute worth of call (which is quite expensive) and "cannot be reached" 
• The advocacy will not go to rallies (which was good because I really hate rallies) 
• I think the advocacy wanted to have a monopolized telecom so that we, consumer will experience a life without "teleco woes" like slow internet connection. 

I hope that the government will pay attention to this advocacy because I think this will really help the consumers. 

Dee Drama Queen?! :))

Honestly, it did not cross my mind to join in any organization in my school because I can't still find my talents. I guess I want my talents to search for me but it will never work, so I'm trying to search for them. I joined our official organ at high school, I was the photojournalist/layout artist. Contributing for our school paper was most likely my forte. I love writing (without considering the grammar because I know a copywriter/proofreader will edit my article.) I think I am more of a writer than a speaker. 

With the influence of my dear friends I was forced to audition in St. Paul University Manila's official theater guild known as Tanghalang St. Paul. I was forced because I wanted an organization (not to put in my extracurricular or anything). I wanted to be in an organization because I want to meet new people and experience something extraordinary. 

I am more of the backstage girl when I was in high school. I really hate performing in front of huge crowd. I am the most shy person ever (I guess.) I think I am sociable but I am shy in showcasing my talent. I am noisy in front of my friends but there's something in me that I don't really get. I am sociable...I can't approach people well...I am friendly...I can't talk much with newly acquainted people...Sometimes I don't even understand myself. :)

I auditioned in Tanghalang St. Paul knowing that I just strayed on the stage. I know I was lousy and weird when I auditioned. Luckily, I passed. I am now an aspiring thespian. 

I did not join the first skit that they made because the Mass Communication Program (my program) will participate in the Freshmen Initiation (held last Thursday 21 July 2011). 

I am now ready to break free. I think. I think I am ready to get out of my shell. So, I decided to join the skit for the World Youth Day Local Celebration in Ateneo de Manila University on August 20-21. I will portray the role of a youthful girly girl. It's not really the major role but I think this is the first step of super-stardom! Yes! I am aiming high. I dream big. I am optimistic! :) I also joined our skit for our course requirement in Retorika (Rhetoric) 

I wish this serve as an inspiration. I was just the backstage girl before turned out to be miss fierce and dramatic actress. I never thought of acting as a passion, I thought acting as a talent. This was the talent I've been searching ever since. 

Tanghalang Saint Paul  is not an organization but a FAMILY.

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Ouch it hurts you know?!

I really don't understand why there are people who do not really care about someone else's feelings. To tell you honestly, I am a tactful person. I really care about the feelings of others before I say my lines. Well, there were times that I say things, which I don't really mean because I was carried away by my emotions (esp. anger, frustration and inis). I think tactfulness should be present anytime and in every people you(we) communicate. 

We're comfortable sharing various things with our friends but we also be tactful. Let us consider the feelings of our friends. On my opinion, I think being straight-forward is not that really good. Being straight-forward has its own disadvantage: you can hurt other's people without knowing anything. Your relationship with your friends will start to fade. Your friendship will have a slight crack. Not unless your friends were really martyrs, who just accept the "hurtful" things that you said.

I've experienced such thing way back then. My friends and I ate in this restaurant and we're telling jokes to each other. Those jokes that they say about me was something offensive. They thought that I'm still in the mood to talk but I just go with the flow. I cried. They still joke. 

Some people were not really aware about the feelings of others, we can't blame them. I just wait until they realize that their actions were wrong. 

These are just my insights. 

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3 years and 7 months

December 19, 2007 - July 26, 2011 


3 years and 7 months
You were there to make me smile
You were there everywhere I go
I can't find someone like you
You are the only one that I have even when I'm in pain
Sunday - Saturday makes me go insane


3 years and 7 months of joy & sorrow
It's raining today, will it rain tomorrow?
The weather loves me. Why will you leave me?
Who will be there to make me beautiful?
Who will be there to make me confident?
Who will boost my self-esteem?


3 years and 7 months
it's hard to imagine that things will fall this way.
it's hard to take that I'll never see you in the morning.


You're like the best boyfriend that I ever had. 
You never left me when I am sad.
 You were there when I am glad. 
What more could I ask for? 
I have to let go.
I have to replace you.
I have to move on.




a supposed-to-be-poem-but-not post for my braces. :)) dramatic?!


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Red lips

I had my first set of make up kit after I graduated in high school. I am not really interested in putting make-up at my face because my perception about putting make-up then was being vain. The said make-up kit was a graduation gift from my cousin. It consist: Mac Foundation, Body Shop Strawberry Lip gloss, Body shop brush, and Body shop eye shadow. Honestly, I don't know how to put make-up (until now). I am now a sophomore, Communication Arts student. I must be presentable anytime. But, I don't know how to be presentable because I lost all the make-ups that my cousin gave me. The only thing that I have is a compact powder. 

I put "make-ups" in my "Necessity List". :)

The first thing that I bought (this is was at my top list) was a red lipstick.I bought this lipstick to Nicole. I really like the shade of it: RED (very red! Thank you AVON). She gave it to me a while ago and I tried it. Smudges here, smudges there. Oh well, I guess painting my face is not my forte but I still try to paint my lips again and again. You know what? I painted my lips before I write this posts (I'm wearing my RED lips while typing this). 

I noticed that when girls painted their lips red they kinda like undergone an attitude change. I noticed it with my friends who tried the RED lipstick. I noticed that the "innocent-looking" me turned into a bitchy whore. Moving on, I looked fiercer when I wear these RED lips. 

Yes, I am at my sleeping attire. :)

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A Blog post a day, everyday okay!

I like to make a vow that I will post one or more in one day. I just like to make this blog writing a hobby (we'll never know this "blog writing" hobby will turn into passion or even more than that). I think I'll be showing all of myself here. I'll try to share some poetry and essays that I wrote way back then. I'll try to look for those poems and essays (and edit the wrong grammar), to make it look WORTH READING. I am happy because some people appreciate the things that I do. Words are the only thing that I can share in the whole wide world. These words that you see in every blog post will forever be here. 

Honestly, I am thinking of my next blog post right now. 

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What will be my future?

I created a blog to share this memorable/odd experience that happened to me at Quiapo, Manila yesterday. 

I was in Quiapo because half of our midterm examination in our major subject Communication Theories is to make a documentary about Communication as Lifeblood. To tell you honestly, as sophomore students we haven't encounter anything about making a documentary.Our topic is Communication as life blood in Advertising.  First, we went to Divisoria to conduct an interview with the consumers and the sellers. Our professor told us to visit at least 3 places. 3 down 2 to go. We divide ourselves into 4 per place. I was with Flery, Nicole and Valerie to visit and conduct an interview in Quiapo.

I never been to Quiapo. Yesterday was my first time to be in Quiapo. Quiapo. Quiapo. Quiapo. There were so many people particularly vendors and children. We went first to the most popular Quiapo Church. We took some videos and then we roamed around outside the church. It was like Divisoria and Baclaran. The only difference is that Quiapo usually sells mostly images of Jesus Christ and other saints. 

We interviewed a man who sells plants, a man who sells cute hair accessories and a fortune teller. I don't really call her a fortune teller but a palm reader. I was curious about the things the palm reader says. I let Nicole try it because I am really afraid of knowing my future. 

She is Madam Nitz. She said that her powers came from her grandfather. She read the palms of Nicole. Some hula (guess) were really true. I told Madam Nitz "Natatakot ako sa mga hula hula na yan" (I am afraid in predictions). She told me that "Isa lamang itong guide para sa iyong kapalaran" (This is just a guide for your destiny.) I paid for Nicole. When I heard all the things that Madam Nitz said to Nicole. I tried it too. It was just 50 pesos (more than $1).She first asked my birthday. I told her "December 24, 2992."

She told me these things:

• ·         Ang December mabait, understanding, maunawain ( People who were born in December are kind/good, understanding )

• ·         Ayaw mo ng inaabuso ka, ayaw mo sa taong sinungaling ( You don't want to be abused. You don't like liars)

• ·         Higit sa lahat ayaw mong pinaghihintay ka sa wala  (You don't really want waiting for nothing)
• ·         Maldita ka rin minsan (You are bitchy sometimes)
• ·         Mag travel ka (You have to travel.)
• ·         Gusto mo makatulong muna sa pamilya mo (You want to help your family first.)
• ·         Ingatan mo ang age na 22 baka after ng graduation mag asawa ka na agad  (When you reach the age of 22 be aware because you might marry someone after graduation)
• ·         Minsan ka lang mag boyfriend kaya asawa na agad kaya ingat ka daw (I don't know how to translate this but here it goes: Its very seldom for you to have a boyfriend, so look forward of marrying him. [Thank you JM for translating this] )
• ·         Pag nag-asawa ka naman pang habang buhay (Your marriage will last for a lifetime)
• ·         Mag wowork ka sa ibang bansa (You'll work abroad)
• ·         Pag may nais kang bilin kahit may pera ka ayaw mo, mahiyain ka humingi ng favor ( You don't buy the things you like even you have money, you're too shy to ask for favors)
• ·         Nasayo ang pag sisikap ( effort lies in your hands)
• ·         Signos: tubig na malalim. Pulikat yan ang ingatan mo. (Beware of deep water. Cramps may occur in deep water, so take care of yourself)
• ·         May pagkapihikan ka sa pag-ibig kahit maraming nanliligaw parang ayaw mo silang bigyan ng pansin (You are too picky when it comes to love, you have many suitors but you ignore them.)
• ·         Pagnaumpisahan mo ang trabaho, dederederetso ( If you started a work, you'll finish it)
• ·         Pag aral, aral. (If you study, you'll study)
• ·         May barkada ka rin naman pero nilalagay mo sa tama. (You have friends.) 
• ·         Kahit anong problema ng family, deadma ka lang ang katwiran mo naman eh masisira ang pag aaral mo (You usually ignore family problems because it will affect your studies)
• ·         Mag dadalawang course ka. Matatapos mo ang isa tapos kukuha ka ulit ng isa. (You will take two courses. You'll graduate and you'll take another course). 

I think it's not to try the palm reading. The weirdest statements that I heard was "May pagkapihikan ka sa pag-ibig kahit maraming nanliligaw parang ayaw mo silang bigyan ng pansin (You are too picky when it comes to love, you have many suitors but you ignore them.)" because I don't even have suitors since birth. One of the weirdest is "·         Signos: tubig na malalim. Pulikat yan ang ingatan mo. (Beware of deep water. Cramps may occur in deep water, so take care of yourself)" because I know how to swim. HAHA.

It's not bad to set these things as a GUIDE for my future. I told this experience to Miss Jem, one of my most loved professors in school (she's now in Singapore), and she told me that the most powerful thing is saying a PRAYER to God. 

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P.S. Sorry I don't have any pictures. I have a video of it but I don't know how to convert it. I'll try to share videos if ever. 

What kind of blogger am I?

I can not be a food blogger because I am really picky when it comes to food. I only eat the food I like to eat and  I don't usually try to taste something NEW.


I can not be a travel blogger because I really have a busy schedule because of my other school priorities. I can't post my everyday travel from Bacoor to Manila unless something odd happened. I can be a travel blogger because I've been to many places. I love traveling. I just don't have the time to travel a lot.


I can not be a fashion blogger because I really have a boring fashion sense. I can't even mix and match well. I am not really found of buying my own dress. Usually the dresses in my closets were gifts from different people. I am not that aesthetic when it comes to fashion. It is not really my passion. BUT I love watching fashion shows on TV.


I can not be a business blogger because I hate business. I hate counting money. I hate Math. Math, money and business make my world complicated. I like promoting things :)


I can not be a tutorial blogger or how-to blogger because those were the people I look for. I am the "how-to" girl and I can not be a how-to blogger because I don't even know "HOW-TO" be one of them :)


I finally think that I am the ANYTHING UNDER THE SUN blogger :) the statement explains itself, I don't need to elaborate.


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Why blog?

Honestly, I love writing but I think writing hates me. Some people were born to write, some were written to become one of the best writer and some writes for sharing their experiences in life.


I love writing. Sometimes I don't consider the grammar and the tenses because if I consider those things I might write something different from what I have been thinking of writing about. BUT I have to consider those things for those who might misinterpret my posts. Anyway, back to the question "Why blog?", I've been writing things in my mind. I've been tweeting since high school about various things. I want to blog because I want to share the things inside my *please insert a very good adjective* mind. I think tweeting is not enough. 140 characters is not enough to share what's going on in my life. This is an online diary. Everybody in the status quo might read it. Everybody will criticize it. Everybody might enjoy.


To make this long statement short: I create a blog to SHARE everything I wanted to share.


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The Origin of this blog

At last! After years of thinking I finally made a name for my blog. Maybe few will ask me why I made a blog named like this. Here are the possible questions:

Why is my blog URL goes like "thevoyageofeos" ? 

My blog URL goes like "thevoyageofeos" because i-don't-really-know-what-adjective-to-put. "thevoyageof" was from the movie The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. I haven't watch any Narnia movie. I was just googling and voila! I finally found something for a blog URL. Voyage means travel particularly in water. Honestly, I once travel in water one island to another. For me, voyage is simply traveling. On the latter part of my URL is "eos." For your information I am not talking about Canon Eos Cameras here, I am talking about Eos, the Greek goddess of dawn. (By the way, my name is Dawn, that's why I am obsessed with it.) As I read the accounts about Eos in wikipedia, I was amazed about her descriptions. I like Athena (goddess of wisdom) and Aphrodite (goddess of love and beauty) then but now I love Eos!  

"The dawn goddess, Eos with "rosy fingers" opened the gates of heaven so that Helios, her brother, could ride his chariot across the sky every day. In Homer,her saffron-colored robe is embroidered or woven with flowers; rosy-fingered and with golden arms, she is pictured on Attic vases as a supernaturally beautiful woman, crowned with a tiara or diadem and with the large white-feathered wings of a bird." (Wikipedia)

Why "The Crack of Dawn"?

Supposedly, "The darkest hour is just before dawn" - meaning there's hope even in the worst circumstances. But I think it is quite serious. I want this blog to be humorous somehow. "The Crack of Dawn" is less serious. It has various connotations. The first connotation about (from he internet) "crack of dawn" is, it is an idiomatic expression which is used when something happened early in the morning. My connotation about crack is telling something in an instance and in a very effective manner. I usually crack jokes. I am a less serious person. 

I guess this is all for my first ever post? :D

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